a public service announcement

So today, I realise that I am utterly useless.

Ever have one of those days? when you sit down to do something and find that you simply can't. Nomatter how hard you try, your efforts will allways be useless. Today was one of those days. I do not wish to go into details, but I will say this.

I'm tired of me.

I'm tired of the stupid shit I do
I'm tired of not being able to understand.
I'm tired of everyone expecting so much out of me
because guys, i'm not special.

I'm not what you want me to be mom, dad.
I'm not what you think I am.
You people look at me daily, and fill me with this bullshit
stop. for the love of god, stop.

In other news, I havn't written here in a while and I allmost feel guilty for that. The truth is, I've missed you blog. I'm going to try to update this as much as possible again. Also, i'm going to try to stop watching as much T.V. and read more.. I feel myself getting stupider by the day. And although I may not be "smart" I wish to preserve whatever I have now. I'm going to go read some foucault. I'll write about it soon.

I'm sorry.


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